i often wish that i don't have to learn things the hard way. that very fragile clot of sanity in my head has been found to be hanging at the end of its thread far too many times. despair could be very attractive at times.
amer said 'bersyukur itu wajib'. that's a good reminder, anytime.
syaza said someone Knows better. also a good reminder.
i read somewhere that one of the pillars of Faith i.e. belief in qada' and qadar means you do not despair. you take it all in whether you like it or not, you put yourself in the big boss' hands and believe, come what may.
and believing could be so hard. but despair is not an option. i have plans and so many plans and plans have a cunning way in not working out. and it is upsetting. people will make you feel small. you have to feel big on your own. be a balloon, a whale, an omnibus, anything but small.
no one starts big. i know i am jealous of a lot of people but everything, everything has its place and time. perhaps this is why people take up a religion. it's a safety net.
so, hey, 26-year-old green creature with a ridiculously blue moustache, it's okay. you'll make it. there are just things you need to learn. do not despair. du bist doing fine.
(i really need to write. the effect of not doing so is unimaginable.)
2 schphink:
i wish for the same too.
sabar and stay strong :) I know you are.
aku ter-imagine jadi pompom girl go teha-go teha tetibe.
despair is still the easier option eh, but not the better.
so, okay, be the pom2 girl now. heheh.
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